A Place of My Own

I have been looking at apartments in the past week, because I feel like I am ready to move out of my Mom's house. I appreciate all that she has done for me and helped me get back on my feet, but I feel like I am at the right point in life to have a place of my own. I am craving more privacy and just a feeling that I have something that is my own space rather than living in a closet size room. The apartments I looked at are close by to her so if she needs me I can be there in less than 5 minutes and if I get lonely I can go visit her whenever I want.

I looked at two apartments. One was absolutely beautiful. It has a lot of space. A huge kitchen, a huge dining room, a huge bedroom and and even bigger living room. A lot of space for little ol' me, probably way too much space for me. The grounds and apartment were quiet and beautiful but the price was very high. The second place I looked at was also on beautiful grounds, even bigger grounds than the first apartment. The apartment was nice, it was smaller but still had a good amount of space. A large living room, small kitchen and large bedroom. It was more my size, and more in my price range. I was happy with this place and was hopeful about it.

I am worried about a few things.

1) The potential landlord for the smaller apartment called today and he seems interested in letting me rent the apartment, but said he was checking my credit and that worries me. The whole reason why I had to move into my parent's house two and a half years ago was because my ex boyfriend screwed me over finacially and it messed my credit up badly. I explained this to the landlord when I viewed the apartment and I hope that he is understanding but I am afraid that he is going to call and say that he can't rent to me and that will just discourage me

2) I am afraid to tell my Mom that I am moving out. Last time I told her I was moving to Maryland a few years ago, it took her over a year to get over and she cried for weeks. This time shouldn't be so bad since I am going to be closer but I was also there when my brother told her that he was moving a half hour away and she cried for days. I just don't know how to break the news to her. And I may have to accept that she may react emotionally no matter what.

3) My boyfriend doesn't fully agree with this idea. He thinks I should have a roommate because he feels that I will get lonely. I want nothing to do with having a roommate, I just want to have a space of my own. He also wishes that if I were to move into a new apartment that it would be closer to him. He thinks that I should just move into the basement of my Mom's house. I have NO desire to do that because of the years worth of work that it will take to clean that up.

I know that I am excited for it. I am 30 years old and I am ready to move into my own place. I am excited for it, I just wish everyone was on board with it.