Under the Weather

Yesterday, I wasn't feeling good, something I am not over today. I went to the doctor and was told it was a virus and to rest for the next few days.

Wednesdays are my usual date night with my boyfriend. It has been since we started dating. We usually do something that he wants to do, which usually means that we go to a bar somewhere. Last night, we had plans to go to the Colorado Cafe. I wasn't feeling good so I told him that although I wish I could go, I just don't feel up to it. He was not so understanding. Even though he said that my being sick was "aok with him", later on he gave me grief about it and tried to guilt me into going. I wouldn't give in, since I knew that once I went with him I would be stuck there for the duration of the night even though I had no energy and didn't even want to drink. He was even saying that I wasn't really sick, that I just had social anxiety and was using the virus as an excuse. Do I need to get a doctor's note now to excuse myself from activities with my boyfriend?

He is sick quite often and I have always been understanding, but because my illness interferes with his bar hopping he gets mad. Shouldn't he be more caring?

He hasn't talked to me since 7 p.m. last night. I texted "goodnight" to him, something I do every night, but no response. Seems ridiculous to me to be that upset about being sick.

I don't regret my decision to stay home. I fell asleep on the couch at 8:30 and just woke up about 13 hours later. So obviously I wasn't up to going out. I just wonder how long he will hold this against me since he has a knack for punishing me for certain things. Just not fair.

The First Time

The First Time My Boyfriend Said "I Love You" While Being Halfway Sober

June 13th, Saturday afternoon.

We were hanging out in the garage (of course!) and we were just talking. I was facing his Mom's car and he came from behind to give me a hug and to cuddle. Then he says, "I have to apologize." I said "Okay" and was really confused because I didn't understand why he needed to apologize. Then he continued "Because I have a little bit of alcohol in my system, but I love you. I really do. You know that right? Because I love you!" I turned around to face him and gave him a kiss and a hug and said to him "I love you too. I love you so much!" He was all teary eyed so I know that he meant it which made me all teary eyed and then we stayed in an embrace for a long time.

Later on we talked about marriage and how happy we made each other.

It was a perfect tribute to our relationship. My boyfriend isn't an alcoholic even though it sounds like that from the title of this blog. But the big joke that we have is that he can't express his feeling when he is sober, that's why he apologized for the alcohol being in his system. He had one drink that afternoon with lunch. He has said "I love you" SEVERAL times while being very drunk. And I know by the way he treats me that he does love me, it's just nice to hear it once and a while.

Hopefully, I'll be hearing this more often now that he broke the seal and said it once, but if he doesn't I still know in my heart that it's love. :)