Once Happy

Our friends are getting a divorce. The husband cheated on his wife and they are separating.

I have so many thoughts about this. It makes me sad to see two friends go through this. I am worried about their well being and about how their children will handle it. I know that we will have to be there for them as they go through these hard times.

It is impossible to know what happened to lead up to these events. No one knows what goes on in any relationship behind closed doors. We tend to think that everything is fine. With the growing number of divorced couples, I find it hard to believe that everyone is doing peachy.

It also makes me think about myself and my relationship, which I know is really selfish while this is going on. I just don't want that for us. We need to commit to each other that no matter what the issue is that we talk it through and work it out. If you love each other enough, you can work through anything.

I guess our friends lost their love somewhere along the way. Its sad to see a once happy couple have to go down this path. I will support their family. If this is the decision that they feel is best for their family, than we will be there for them to offer support, comfort and friendship.

What is Love?

What is love?

Love is kissing me on the forehead whenever I feel sad. Love is taking care of each other when sick. Love is protecting me from ones that are unkind or rude. Love is holding each other as we fall asleep. Love is talking about not only the important stuff but the trivial stuff as well. Love is sharing a good laugh together. Love is being there when times get tough. Love is making me feel special and accepting me for who I am. Love is understanding. Love is not trying to change me even though that me may not be perfect. Love is patience that goes beyond what you think you had. Love is unconditional. Love is knowing that you will be in each other's hearts for the rest of your lives. Love is indescribable. Love is unexplainable.

There aren't enough words or thoughts to describe what love is. It is unspoken. It appears but never leaves.

That is what love is in my world (or at least what I can put into words). I love being in love!

A Permanent Situation

So, my boyfriend, though he has not said those three little words to me while being sober, is serious about little ol' me.

He says "I love you" SEVERAL times while he is drunk. And I know that he does love me even though he can't say it. But now I realize that he is pretty serious about this relationship and is hoping that it lasts for a long time.

I know this because he has said it. He told me that he has every faith that this will work out. And has said that this relationship will turn into a permanent situation. Today, I got my test results from being sick and everything came back normal. In other words, I am going to be fine. When I told him that everything will turn out just fine, he got super excited! He said and I quote "yeah, lots of sex and kids in my future!" and went on to say that he is happy to hear my news for my sake and not his. When I questioned this he said that he would accept me no matter what, even if that means I am sick or have a disease. He said "if your health is bad, it would still be good for me, I would be accepting of you". Then went on to mention marriage before changing the subject.

So he loves me. He just can't say the word sober....honestly neither can I. I seem to only be able to say them in writing in a Valentine's Day card. So maybe we aren't meant for each other.

Life is too short to not say you love someone when you do. I just can't do it. But I am definitely falling more and more in love with him everyday.