Flip Flop

I've been really indecisive about college / career plans this past week.

I was all prepared to send my graduate school application in. Then I had a conversation with my boyfriend and a friend and both gave me the same advice. Make the smaller change first and see if that makes you happy before making a bigger change. Basically they were saying that instead of totally changing careers that maybe a move to a different type of school or teaching a different grade may be the better solution.

That night I went online to search public schools for vacancies in the upcoming school year. And as I am doing this, I realize that I am not excited at all at all the possible opportunities. I was unhappy, unexcited and pretty much miserable with even the thought of remaining a teacher. So, I decided then that I will go to grad school and study criminal justice.

Until the next day. I had my annual performance review and I did well. Really well. You would think I would be happy. Yay! I am great at my job and they appreciate my hard work. Instead it left me confused...very confused. Maybe I should stick with this career. Maybe I am good at this kind of work. But even though I am good at it, I just don't know if I want to do it anymore. It just doesn't make me happy all the time

I sent in my grad school application today. I didn't want to close the door on it. This way I'll have options in a few months and I can decided then.

I just read this whole article about the quarter life crisis. I think I am definitely in one. I just wish I knew how to cure it.