Love Being Single

Being single doesn't mean I have to have a downer of a Christmas. Here are some of the reasons why I am happy to be single during the holidays.

1) I can spend my money how I want to. Which means that I can get my family and friends special gifts and even buy myself something a little something. And if I want to splurge on extra gifts for my dog, no one is going to criticize me for it.

2) I can spend my time how I wish. Which means I can go to any holiday party I want to and I don't have to drag someone with me who doesn't want to go. I can also spend all my time with my family and friends on the holiday. I won't have to split time between families or spend time with in-laws that I really don't like. I also won't have to spend hours at the mall trying to find the perfect gift. And it does take hours, sometimes more, because I am a horrible gift giver. And this way, all my thoughts can be put to thinking up gifts for my loved ones and not for a boyfriend.

3) I have the right to flirt. At said holiday parties, I won't have to stick like glue to someone who doesn't know anyone there. I can mingle. And most of all, I can flirt. With anyone and everyone if I want to and not feel at all guilty. I can (and most likely will) flirt with every hottie there and not even care what the outcome will be. I will make it my goal to be THE girl at the party instead of just a girl at the party.

4) Being unmarried means that I will get gifts that are meant for me, and not for the house or the couple. Which means instead of getting towels or an appliance for Christmas, I will be unwrapping a sweater or shoes (and we all know how I LOVE shoes!)

5) I have the right to be selfish if I want to be. Which means if I want something for myself I can make it happen. I can buy myself extra gifts with the money I saved from not buying that gift for the boyfriend (Hello new ballroom dancing shoes!) All my goals for 2009 can be completely about me and not satisfying a significant other. Which means I can go back to school or find a new job or dedicate my free time to a hobby of mine. And I do plan on doing all of that and more because I can!

Would it be nice to have someone to kiss under the mistletoe? Of course. But I won't let that put a damper on my holiday. Maybe I can kiss several guys, who knows. The possibilities are endless.

Happy Holidays! Enjoy!

This Christmas

Today I got out my box of Christmas items that I accumulated while I lived with my now ex-boyfriend. There are some things in there that are just regular Christmas ornaments. Then there are other things that have special meaning and I will never be able to use again cause they remind me of him.

It has left me feeling a little sad. Like something is missing. That's been happening a lot lately. My brother moving into his own place has left me jealous and reminiscing. And now with the holidays...I don't know if I am going to get out of this funk.

Last year was my first Christmas back home after the break up and I was a little sad but also thankful to be back home. This year I am a little sad but I think it is for a different reason. I am jealous and a bit upset, but I certainly don't miss the ex-boyfriend. I am just sad that I haven't found love again. I guess I thought it would happen by now. I have been single for a year and half now and I was hopeful that by the second Christmas home that I would have someone to share it with. And since I don't, I just was wondering if I ever will find that person. Will I find him by next Christmas? I don't want just anybody, this time I hope he is "the one". But Santa, could you please bring him soon? I'm losing hope.