Exhausted

So, the doctor called and told me I have Epstein-Barr Syndrome. He said that this is caused by the mono I had in the beginning of the year. Apparently, once you have mono it remains dormant in your body, so it's able to reactivate at anytime. And now mine has reactivated, since my body was already weakened from the Vertigo. Isn't that great? I'll be battling this for the rest of my life! I was finally feeling better from the Vertigo and was looking forward to returning to work soon and all that was blown away with a single phone call.

I know that I wasn't feeling fully better. I have been exhausted over the last two weeks, have been sleeping for over 10 hours a night and still waking up tired. I knew something was wrong with my body but I was hoping that the fatigue was the result of being inactive. You know how sometimes you grow tired from not being busy.

He told me that rest was the only cure for it and to just wait it out again. Meanwhile, I have to stay home from work for even longer than I planned and I am a little worried about my job security. Will they hold my place for me? I think that they will have to hire someone to take my place, at least temporarily. They thought I would be back in a month and I have already been out for double that so now that I will be out for triple or quadruple what was originally planned, what will they do? With the economy being the way it is, why would they keep someone that they have to pay disability to when they can hire someone cheaper to do the job? Someone told me that they can't legally do that, but I am sure that there are ways for them to get around it if they want to. In fact, thats how I lost my last job. I got mono, was out for 3 months and didn't have a job once I was better. So, you have to understand why I would be worried.

It just has me a little stressed. I know that it all happens for a reason. Maybe I should just concentrate on resting and getting better and not on work. Doctor said to avoid stress. So I will try to do just that, watching re-runs of Desperate Housewives on DVD and painting Christmas ornaments for everyone.

Now I think I will take a nap. Doctor's orders.